I tossed and turned all last week because God sometimes speaks to me in the most inopportune times. I don’t hear an audible voice or anything like that. On the contrary, he reminds me of the truths of his Word. Something he wants me to apply to my life right now or to share with others.
Recently, God has been speaking to me concerning the topic of love. I will be speaking on the topic in May and the words started to flow into me in the wee hours of the morning. Seriously, God? You know this dinner is not until May right? And you do understand that I have other immediate needs.
I found myself prioritizing other responsibilities that I deemed more important throughout the day, while God continued speaking to me in the wee hours of the morning. When we say to God, “not my will, but your will” (which I was singing several days last week), we need to mean it.
How quickly we forget that God is in control and his will shall be done when he messes with our personal agendas. While trying to understand my sleepless nights, it is as if God was saying to me, “When I tell you to do something, do it.” Then I was reminded of a message I heard in October where the speaker said, “Delayed obedience is disobedience.” I spent two restless nights trying to mentally hold on to the message God was giving me so that I would not forget it. By Thursday, I reasoned I needed to write my speaking point down and I needed to do it quickly. Once I began putting the words to paper, I was able to get back to sleep.
The first time I had this experience was a few years ago when I started to get the idea, “Maybe I should write.” I attended a conference and had a conversation with a man who got my wheels turning concerning of all the possibilities of telling God’s story through the experiences of my life. Afterward, I could barely sleep for three weeks. I was up all night writing: writing those things that I thought, experienced, learned, feared. Writing reminded me of the different paths and turns my life had taken, most of which were not planned by me but are constant reminders that “[I am] God’s masterpiece created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for [me] to do (Eph 2: 10).” Writing reminds me that God is in charge of my life and he is going to work everything out for my good, so that everyday I am being conformed into the likeness of his son, Jesus.
Writing may keep me up at night, but writing is another way I pray and commune with God. I write the visions God has revealed for my life. I write about his blessings and benefits. I write so that I don’t forget.
What encourages you to write? When discouraged from writing, how do you keep going?